Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Being Yourself

See these shoes? Yeah, I bought them last week in black. I walked around my house in them for about five minutes, looking like Bambi learning to walk, and almost broke every bone in my body.

They are now on their way back to the manufacturer (thank you, ShoeDazzle, for free shipping both ways)...but I still wish I could wear them. I think being unrealistic is part of being a writer. I can see these shoes online and temporarily forget that I have the weakest ankles in the world and have had surgery on both of them. I can pretend that my feet don't feel like a tiny knife is stabbing into them whenever I wear anything higher than pumps. I can see these and think--

Oh yeah, I could rock that look.

No, self. No, you cannot.

My theory is that being able to believe in these delusions makes me a better writer. If I can create entire worlds and characters that I care so much about that they feel real...why couldn't I convince myself that I can wear these shoes?

I guess if I'm going to delude myself into believing that I can do something I cannot, then buying the wrong shoes isn't the worst way to go. I mean, I could delude myself into believing I can take my advance to Vegas and double it. Or that if I buy enough tickets then I will win the lottery...right? Buying super cute shoes and then returning them the next day = not so bad.

What about you? What have you deluded yourself into believing lately?


  1. LOL! My shoe fail had heels a lot lower than that. :)

    I have deluded myself into thinking that I can run a half marathon. I'm still working on overcoming that delusion though . . .

  2. I have the shoe delusion too! sometimes I put on an awesome pair of heeled boots for a date with my husband and then end up wearing my tennis shoes five minutes later, *sigh* but I totally believe the delusions help with writing!

  3. Oh my gosh, you did NOT try walking around in those. No wonder you almost broke everything. No one could walk in those things.

    But yes, I can see why you would love them and believe you could rock that look. Bet they looked fabulous on you for that five minutes you wore them. I guess sometimes five minutes is all we need to figure out what happens next.

    I'm trying to decide if I'm delusional in the moments I think I can be a writer, or in the moments I think I can't. Depends on the day. The good news is I haven't broken yet. Got to be a good sign, yes?

  4. Hahahaha! The Bambi line still has me grinning form ear to ear. Just imagining that...hehehe. You are so cute.

    I think it's good to get disillusioned once in awhile. It keeps us on our toes. Literally. :)

  5. I'm pretty sure those shoes could tempt any woman into wearing them. They're just that cute. And in black?! Even better!

    I bet you rocked the look. I'm sorry they didn't work but I feel your pain. (Literally.)

  6. Hahahahaha! Oh, I can just see you mincing around in those shoes!